Just Thoughts

Today my thoughts are much like the weather. Cloudy and gloomy. The sun is trying to come out. Its 10:08 am and I just rode my exercise bike 10 miles in half an hour. Dale is trying to go to sleep but one of my two upstaris neighbors is baby sitting her 2 grandsons and they are making all kinds of noise yet again. Running across the floor, bouncing a ball, all kinds of pounding noise. She knows Dale works on Wednesday and Thursday nights and needs to sleep during the day. Some times I feel like just going up there and saying " I am asking you nicely to keep the noise down." If I have to I will complain to the landlord. I dont really want to do that. But after the 12th of this month she said she wont be baby sitting. Will wait until then and see how it goes.

Tomorrow should just be another day, but it will be like today filled with sadness.
If Momma was still living, tomorrow would be her birthday. I remember the first suprise birthday party that my youngest sister and I had for Momma. I had a key to Mommas appartment. I gave it to my sister so that she could decorate while Momma and I went to the nursing home to see my step dad. When we came back I saw my sister looking out the door watching for us. I went in first and the kitchen was decorated with balloons, streamers and posters. On the table was an ice cream cake from Dairy Queen, and other refreshements and gifts. I turned around to look at Momma and she had a suprised look on her face. Tears were glistening in her eyes.
in a choked voice she said "This is the first birthday party any one has ever had for me." We all had a good time.

Mommy,
I miss you. I will never forget you. Some times I just sit and talk out loud to you. I believe that you can hear me. It makes me feel better.

On a happier note, I am looking forward to the weekend. I am going to my sisters and spend some time with her. I am going to visit her church with her Sunday morning. My baby brother Rick, will be teaching his first Sunday School Class. He doesnt know that I an going to be there. I will be coming home after church kinda. Long enough to change clothes and then off to baby sit the boys. Nicki will be working the evening shift.

I am thinking about walking across town to the grocery store but dont know if I want to wait til Dale gets up so we can go together and let that our walk for the day or if I want to go alone and then walk with Dale later in the day.

Walking twice is better than walking once, so until next time I hope things are going well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world. I am off to shower and go to the grocery store. Just hope it doesnt rain before I get back.