Looking Back

Looking Back

Looking back at some things that have had an influence in my
life, I see now that I should of done some things differently.
This may get long and its ok if no one reads it all or any of it
because it will make me feel better by writing it.

I know now that I will never again let someone influence me and what
I have to do about any given situation that I have only met on the internet.
I let some one whom I thought was a good friend talk me into doing
something and because of what the person whom I thought was a friend
instagated it caused me to lose some other internet friends. The friend
who started it all came out smelling like roses and got what they wanted.
They still have all the friends we had in common. This friend said to
keep in touch, why should I make the effort of keeping the friendship when
they dont or wont respond to instant messages or emails? Did I learn from
what this so called friend and I did? Yes, I learned that you can never trust
some people whom you thought you knew just by talking to them on the internet.
I learned not to trust so freely. Not to give of myself until I know the people
I talk to on the internet better and to trust in my intution. To be the person
that I am with every one on the internet and if they dont like me for me and
the person that I am then I will still talk to them, be nice, but less giving in
certain areas of the friendship about what I share or dont share with them.

Do I regret what I let this internet friend talk me into doing? Yes, I do and
I wont let internet friends talk me into doing something like that again. I have
told my other friends that I was sorry. That didnt change any thing other than
they now no longer talk to me. I thought that they were really my friends
but now I am not so sure they were.

Life is about growing up and learning to be responsible for your actions.
Life is about taking care of yourself regardless of what others think you should
do. Life is about doing what you think is the best thing for you. Life if for living, having fun along with the bad times. Pain is part of the growing process. We all have things in our lives that cause us pain and stress. We just have to learn how to deal with the pain, let problems go and move on.

Forgive and forget. Easy said, but not so easy to do. Yet we expect others to do it. The past we cant change, all we can do is live in the present and try not to let the past influence who we are and how we act in the present.

Each new day brings change. Change for the better or for the worse its still a part
of our lives. Yesterday is gone, today is the here and now, tomorrow is the future.
Tomorrow may never come. Live for today. Tell those you love, that you love them
for you may not have the chance to tomorrow. Right past wrongs and move on with
life. Change the things that bother you and let go of the things that you cant change.
Think about what your doing and saying and how it will effect the people you love and care about before doing it.

Emotions are fragile feelings at times and its so easy to hurt the ones you love and care about. When dealing with family, friends and people in general we need to think about how our actions will effect them. Think about what the consequences of our action could be. How it wil effect all involved in the situation, before carring them out.

I think thats enough for now. I need to go and start my day. So, unti next time, I hope that all is well and good for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.