Mirrored Image
As I stand before the full looking glass,
I wonder how can that image looking back
be me. Its not but yet it is.
The laugh lines around the sad eyes that
look at the world around me.
How can it be?
How can that mirrored image be me?
Clothes that dont fit,
hanging on a frame that is no longer tall.
How small I appear.
Wrinkles where there use to be none.
Lose skin in places where there shouldnt be any.
Sad eyes stare back at me,
lost in thoughts of the past,
a past put behind me or is it?
Thoughts come and thoughts go
wondering what other changes
aging will bring to this body that
I see, that is me.
Dropping down on my knees,
my reflection looking back at me.
Yes, that mirrored image is me.
But, how can it be?
Wrote 11/23/2009
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
When Love Dies
When Love Dies
Wrote April 6, 2010 by me Becca
His love filled my soul with happiness
His crewl words caused my soul to wither and die
Soft sigh exscaping lips that are silent out of
resect for what I had been taught
It all came to naught
We faught
Loves gone
Anger abounds
Accusations flies around
Yelling sounds soars
while my tears slide down my cheeks ignored.
No where to go
nothing to do but stay
My fears keeping me there
No one to care
no one to share
with cubboards that are bare
Lord help me let go
help me to move on to
put one foot in front of the other and walk or
stumble out the door. Show me the way
take me by the hand and lead me away,
for there is nothing left to say.
Wrote April 6, 2010 by me Becca
His love filled my soul with happiness
His crewl words caused my soul to wither and die
Soft sigh exscaping lips that are silent out of
resect for what I had been taught
It all came to naught
We faught
Loves gone
Anger abounds
Accusations flies around
Yelling sounds soars
while my tears slide down my cheeks ignored.
No where to go
nothing to do but stay
My fears keeping me there
No one to care
no one to share
with cubboards that are bare
Lord help me let go
help me to move on to
put one foot in front of the other and walk or
stumble out the door. Show me the way
take me by the hand and lead me away,
for there is nothing left to say.
My Thoughts on Lying
Is your intution good? Do you believe it? Do you heed it when it tells
you some thing is wrong? I do. Especially when it is about people in
my daily life or the people I have meet on the internet and talk to alot.
When it comes to people lying, my intution is pretty good. I dont always
confront them about the lies they tell, but I do let them know what I
think and feel about whatever lie they are telling at the time.
I think it is always best to tell the truth no matteer what the situation may be. One lie snowballs into more and more lies and eventually you
dont know what the real truth is.
In all honesty, I dont like people who are always lying. I dont like to be
around them in person or on the internet. I dont always stick to that though.
I have to be really upset with some one and fed up with their lies before I no
longer have any thing to do with them. I will tell people face to face what I
think about them. I dont go behind their back. Its ok if not all the people I
know dont like me. Cuz the good Lord knows I sure dont like some of the
people I have met in my life time.
Its ok to have friends that like and are friends with some of the people you dont
like or get along with. Thats compromise and thats what makes a good friend a
true friend. I dont have to be with my best friend all the time for them
to be my best friend. I dont need friends buying me things for them to be my friends.
What I need from my friends is truth, honesty, trust and respect. Some one who is going to be there when I need them and some one who knows I will be there for them
no matter what time of day or night. They have but to call and I'll be there, in person when possible, and when not possible either on messenger in a voice chat or on the phone.
In conclusion, I need to think some more about what I want to do an make a final decision and stick to it.........
So, until next time, I hope all is well with you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
you some thing is wrong? I do. Especially when it is about people in
my daily life or the people I have meet on the internet and talk to alot.
When it comes to people lying, my intution is pretty good. I dont always
confront them about the lies they tell, but I do let them know what I
think and feel about whatever lie they are telling at the time.
I think it is always best to tell the truth no matteer what the situation may be. One lie snowballs into more and more lies and eventually you
dont know what the real truth is.
In all honesty, I dont like people who are always lying. I dont like to be
around them in person or on the internet. I dont always stick to that though.
I have to be really upset with some one and fed up with their lies before I no
longer have any thing to do with them. I will tell people face to face what I
think about them. I dont go behind their back. Its ok if not all the people I
know dont like me. Cuz the good Lord knows I sure dont like some of the
people I have met in my life time.
Its ok to have friends that like and are friends with some of the people you dont
like or get along with. Thats compromise and thats what makes a good friend a
true friend. I dont have to be with my best friend all the time for them
to be my best friend. I dont need friends buying me things for them to be my friends.
What I need from my friends is truth, honesty, trust and respect. Some one who is going to be there when I need them and some one who knows I will be there for them
no matter what time of day or night. They have but to call and I'll be there, in person when possible, and when not possible either on messenger in a voice chat or on the phone.
In conclusion, I need to think some more about what I want to do an make a final decision and stick to it.........
So, until next time, I hope all is well with you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Domestic Violence
Domestic violence, also known as domestic abuse, spousal abuse,
child abuse or intimate partner violence (IPV),
can be broadly defined as a pattern of abusive behaviors by one
or both partners in an intimate relationship such as marriage,
dating, family, friends or cohabitation. Domestic violence has
many forms including physical aggression (hitting, kicking, biting, shoving,
restraining, throwing objects), or threats thereof; sexual abuse;
emotional abuse; controlling or domineering; intimidation;
stalking; passive/covert abuse (e.g., neglect); and economic
deprivation. Domestic violence may or may not constitute a crime,
depending on local statues, severity and duration of specific acts,
and other variables. Alcohol consumption and mental illness have
frequently been associated with abuse.
Any form of domestic violence is not ok. It happened to some one
close to me. This is her story. Shes a young mother in her early 20's.
Shes married, now in the process of getting a divorce. She has 2 boys
aged 4 and 2. She has custody of her boys. Their father
doesnt want any thing to do with the boys.
The boys father abused their mother in front of them. He was choking
her. He abused the 4 year old by hitting him in the face and leaving a
huge bruise covering most of his little cheek.
He kept her and the boys away from her family and friends for 3 months.
He cheated on her. This is the only time that I am aware of him abusing
them. It could or could not of happened before. People who are abused
become good at hiding it. They are ashamed, they fear being abused again if any one finds out.
She had finally had enough when he choked her in front of her mother and
her mothers friends. The police were called. He was charged, ordered to leave
the home. She went to a place for domestic violence here in town. She stayed
with her mother for a while then went back home with the boys, once the police told her he was out of the house and it was safe for her and the kids to go home.
The locks at their house has been changed, hes not allowed to be around them
or thier house. Some of his family is her neighbors.
I do not know if he was abused as a child, but was told that abuse runs in his
family. I dont know if that is true or not. I dont know him as well as I know
her.
They have been to court, she had a lawyer, he didnt. The judge told him to get
one because he was in a lot of trouble. He has to give back most of the things
he took out of their house.
Shes moving on with her life. Taking classes to better herself, looking for a job so she can support herself and her kids.
To get help call your local domestic violence hotline or the National Domestic
Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or TTY 1-800-787-3224
Hotline services include
crisis intervention, safety planning, information about domestic violence and
referrals to local service providers.
Direct connection to domestic violence resources available in the callers area
provided by a Hotline advocare.
Assistance in English and Spanish with Hotline advocates having access to more
than 170 different languages through interpreter services.
Assistance through email
Informational materials on such topics as domestic violence, sexual assult,
battering intervention and prevention programs, working through the
criminal justice system and related issues. There is help out there for those who have been abused.
No matter what the abuser tells you it is not your fault. They will tell you that your are
worthless. That no one else would have you. That your fat, ugly, worthless. They beat down
your self esteem so that you wont try to leave them. They control you this way. Some stay because
they think they have no place to go, no one to help them. But there is help, no matter who you are,
or where you live. Please dont wait until its to late.
Until next time, I hope all is well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
child abuse or intimate partner violence (IPV),
can be broadly defined as a pattern of abusive behaviors by one
or both partners in an intimate relationship such as marriage,
dating, family, friends or cohabitation. Domestic violence has
many forms including physical aggression (hitting, kicking, biting, shoving,
restraining, throwing objects), or threats thereof; sexual abuse;
emotional abuse; controlling or domineering; intimidation;
stalking; passive/covert abuse (e.g., neglect); and economic
deprivation. Domestic violence may or may not constitute a crime,
depending on local statues, severity and duration of specific acts,
and other variables. Alcohol consumption and mental illness have
frequently been associated with abuse.
Any form of domestic violence is not ok. It happened to some one
close to me. This is her story. Shes a young mother in her early 20's.
Shes married, now in the process of getting a divorce. She has 2 boys
aged 4 and 2. She has custody of her boys. Their father
doesnt want any thing to do with the boys.
The boys father abused their mother in front of them. He was choking
her. He abused the 4 year old by hitting him in the face and leaving a
huge bruise covering most of his little cheek.
He kept her and the boys away from her family and friends for 3 months.
He cheated on her. This is the only time that I am aware of him abusing
them. It could or could not of happened before. People who are abused
become good at hiding it. They are ashamed, they fear being abused again if any one finds out.
She had finally had enough when he choked her in front of her mother and
her mothers friends. The police were called. He was charged, ordered to leave
the home. She went to a place for domestic violence here in town. She stayed
with her mother for a while then went back home with the boys, once the police told her he was out of the house and it was safe for her and the kids to go home.
The locks at their house has been changed, hes not allowed to be around them
or thier house. Some of his family is her neighbors.
I do not know if he was abused as a child, but was told that abuse runs in his
family. I dont know if that is true or not. I dont know him as well as I know
her.
They have been to court, she had a lawyer, he didnt. The judge told him to get
one because he was in a lot of trouble. He has to give back most of the things
he took out of their house.
Shes moving on with her life. Taking classes to better herself, looking for a job so she can support herself and her kids.
To get help call your local domestic violence hotline or the National Domestic
Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or TTY 1-800-787-3224
Hotline services include
crisis intervention, safety planning, information about domestic violence and
referrals to local service providers.
Direct connection to domestic violence resources available in the callers area
provided by a Hotline advocare.
Assistance in English and Spanish with Hotline advocates having access to more
than 170 different languages through interpreter services.
Assistance through email
Informational materials on such topics as domestic violence, sexual assult,
battering intervention and prevention programs, working through the
criminal justice system and related issues. There is help out there for those who have been abused.
No matter what the abuser tells you it is not your fault. They will tell you that your are
worthless. That no one else would have you. That your fat, ugly, worthless. They beat down
your self esteem so that you wont try to leave them. They control you this way. Some stay because
they think they have no place to go, no one to help them. But there is help, no matter who you are,
or where you live. Please dont wait until its to late.
Until next time, I hope all is well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Do You Ever
Do You Ever
Have one of those kinds of days where you have some thing
you have to do but dont want to do it? You know its the right
thing to do and you know it will bring you down? Well that
is the kind of day I am going to have.
My best friends uncle passed away and the viewing is today
with the funeral right after. I am going, but I dont really want to.
I dont like funerals. But I need to be there for my best friend.
Her uncle was more like a father to her than an uncle. I know she will
have family there but yesterday when we spent time together she
ask me to come and I told her I would.
I am going to hate it when she leaves, because then I cant be there
for her. She now lives in another state and its a long drive home for
her.
Dale and I have \known her uncle for years. We will miss him.
Gone but not forgotten Bubby.
Until next time I hope things are going well for you and yours in
your own little piece of the world.
Have one of those kinds of days where you have some thing
you have to do but dont want to do it? You know its the right
thing to do and you know it will bring you down? Well that
is the kind of day I am going to have.
My best friends uncle passed away and the viewing is today
with the funeral right after. I am going, but I dont really want to.
I dont like funerals. But I need to be there for my best friend.
Her uncle was more like a father to her than an uncle. I know she will
have family there but yesterday when we spent time together she
ask me to come and I told her I would.
I am going to hate it when she leaves, because then I cant be there
for her. She now lives in another state and its a long drive home for
her.
Dale and I have \known her uncle for years. We will miss him.
Gone but not forgotten Bubby.
Until next time I hope things are going well for you and yours in
your own little piece of the world.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Its going to be one of those days
Its going to be one of those days where there is no peace and quiet. The upstairs neighbor has her daughter and 2 young grandsons staying with her and they are loud. Running across the floor screaming at the top of their lungs, banging things. I understand you cant keep kids quiet all the time. They know Dale works nights and sleeps during the day. If things dont quieten down I am going up there and tell them to keep the noise down. What makes me mad she tells me its not them making any noise that it it the people in the other apartment. Excuse me its her bedroom over ours and if its not them at 1:30 in the morning making nose I sure would like to know who is in her apartment making noise at that time in the morning. Only suppose to be one person living there and now there is 5 people staying there.
I dont like to complain about the noise but I will if they keep it up.
Until next time, I hope all is well with you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
I dont like to complain about the noise but I will if they keep it up.
Until next time, I hope all is well with you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Is It Spring Yet?
I know its not Spring yet but for the last couple of days we have had Spring like weather. I love it! Not to hot and not to cold. Just right to be outside doing things. The early morning hours is still a little cold. Like this morning when I walked home from my daughter's at a little after 6 it was 22 degrees out. Its now 8:21 and 25 out. The sun isn't up yet but it is supposed to be another Spring like day.
I started a new blog this week for my own original creations. You can see them or down load them here.
This week on Wednesday, I went shopping and out to lunch with my sister and daughter. Thursday morning I went out to breakfast with my daughter and youngest grandson. Friday morning I went out to breakfast with my daughter and youngest grandson and then we ran around town. As for today, I had a pop tart for breakfast and will be staying home unless something comes up until time to go baby sit tonight. Tomorrow (Sunday) starts a week of being home. The boys will be going to their dads for the coming week tomorrow. And that's what's been happening in my world this week.
Until next time, I hope things are going well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
I started a new blog this week for my own original creations. You can see them or down load them here.
This week on Wednesday, I went shopping and out to lunch with my sister and daughter. Thursday morning I went out to breakfast with my daughter and youngest grandson. Friday morning I went out to breakfast with my daughter and youngest grandson and then we ran around town. As for today, I had a pop tart for breakfast and will be staying home unless something comes up until time to go baby sit tonight. Tomorrow (Sunday) starts a week of being home. The boys will be going to their dads for the coming week tomorrow. And that's what's been happening in my world this week.
Until next time, I hope things are going well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
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