It's been a long hot summer and now that it's fall I love the warm breezy days and the cooler nights.
Both the boys are in school. Nicki is going to school and I pick the boys up after school.
Some family things have been going on and then there is some things going on with some of my so called friends. So called because they are here talking to me on the net when they want something from me, pc help, just to vent to, etc. Then they disappear for days at a time. This is me time. Not venting to any one person and if youre a follower of my blog, I an not particularly venting to you. Just my thoughts and feelings here.
I belong to a lot of yahoo groups, well the topic in one of them was deception this week and how it makes us feel. Well, some one who came into my life about 3 years ago called me over the weekend and make such a big deal about visiting me today. It didnt happen. I didnt think it would. So I wasnt really decieved. Then they called me earlier tonight and made such a big deal out of why they couldnt visit me today. And how maybe next time they come in or I could come visit them. Well......its not going to be me going to see them. And if they come here again, I am more than ok with it if they dont come to visit me. Some things are going to be changing in my life soon and they well be for the better.
I dont want people who feel obligated for whatever reason to come and visit. I dont need people like that in my life. Some people when they talk to you in person or on the phone its all about them and you cant get a word in edgewise. Well those people wont be hearing from me either any more. If they call me I might or might not answer my phone and I might or might not return their calls. To those people who said keep in touch, I am tired of being the one who calls and then gets brushed off after listening to all your problems. Well... that to is going to change, I am done listening. I dont need need you either.
What I did this summer. Spent a lot of time with my grandsons. Drake played t ball, both boys played soccer, and Drake is playing Little Raiders Flag Football. His last game is at home this Sunday at noon. I also spent time with my sister in law. We had a good time while she was here. We went places and did things.
Dale is doing better after having stents put in his leg back in may. He is on a blood thinner and going to get blood work done every 3 weeks, to make sure the blood thinner is working.
This week is the Black Walnut Festival. Tomorrow I am going to take the boys to look at the exhibits and to walk around and look at the carnival rides. Drake got off the school bus this evening all exicite. He said nana nana guess what? When I ask him what he said I saw Grandpa Crachet today. Grandpa Crachet is a puppet show that is free during the festival. I will be busy the rest of this week and weekend doing festival things. I will have pics posted on my face book of the festival and maybe some here.
Its getting late and tomorrow is going to be a long day. I hope all is well with you and yours in your own little piece of the world. So until next time, be well and safe.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Its Been A Long Time
Its been some time since I posted here. Things have happened this summer that were unexpected. My husband being in the hospital. Having stints put in his leg and having to go on blood thinners. He is at the point now with the blood thinners that he only has to go every 2 weeks and get blood work done. They usually change the dosage of his blood thinner pills evey time he goes. Hes doing really well on them and his blood is where they want it to be.
Drake played t-ball and I went to almost all of his games. Both the boys are now playing soccer and I go to most of their games.
School will be starting soon. Josh will be going into the 6th grade and Drake will be starting kindergarden. Its going to be odd not having drake around during the day. Kids grow up so fast. I sure will miss spending lots of time with Josh and Drake when school starts.
As for me, my sugar levels have been a little high, but the dr said they still looked good. My feet and ankles have been swelling from the heat. Its been one of the hottest summers we have had for a long time. The humidity is high every day.
Also, I am going to have a place removed on my shoulder, have my eyes checked and some other test done.
I have been working on some new kits, just one, but have several ideals for more.
My newest kits is called Mix n Match. It is kind of going to be like a mystery grab bag with a preview of one each for papers, elemsnts and frames. I should have it on my Beccas Unique Attic Treasures Blog some time next week.
I hope the summer has been kind to you and yours. Until next time I hope all is well in your own little piece of the world.
Drake played t-ball and I went to almost all of his games. Both the boys are now playing soccer and I go to most of their games.
School will be starting soon. Josh will be going into the 6th grade and Drake will be starting kindergarden. Its going to be odd not having drake around during the day. Kids grow up so fast. I sure will miss spending lots of time with Josh and Drake when school starts.
As for me, my sugar levels have been a little high, but the dr said they still looked good. My feet and ankles have been swelling from the heat. Its been one of the hottest summers we have had for a long time. The humidity is high every day.
Also, I am going to have a place removed on my shoulder, have my eyes checked and some other test done.
I have been working on some new kits, just one, but have several ideals for more.
My newest kits is called Mix n Match. It is kind of going to be like a mystery grab bag with a preview of one each for papers, elemsnts and frames. I should have it on my Beccas Unique Attic Treasures Blog some time next week.
I hope the summer has been kind to you and yours. Until next time I hope all is well in your own little piece of the world.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Mothers and Daughters
Mothers and daughters often have a special bond from the day they are born. That bond grows stronger as each day goes by. Then the rebellious teen years begin.
We expect a lot from our children and want the best for them. They think we owe them the world. Should give them what they want when they want it. They often think they shouldnt have to work and pay for any thing that they want.
I worked from the time I was 13. Started out baby sitting. Worked during the summer on the Summer Youth program all 4 of my high school years to pay for the things I needed for shcool. Worked my senior year in the kitchen at school to pay
for all the things I needed for graduation.
You guessed it. I did things that momma said I couldnt do. When I got caught I took the punishment. I was also resentful toward momma and my younger brother and sister. I got punished for things they did. When I was 18 I was told I had to get a job, pay my momma and step dad to live in their house and if I didnt I could get out. So I left and moved in with one of my older sisters to baby sit her kids. Dale and I got married shortly after that. I was told I wasnt allowed to visit my momma or siblings. Because my step father didnt like Dale. Well he didnt like me either. Wasnt any love lost. If I could go back and change things would I? No, for the simple fact that the past made me the person I am today. Taught me that I could make it on my own. That no one but me was responsible for me but me.
My relationship with my daughter while she was growing up was pretty good. Once she got married it changed. She got married when she was 18. We had our rough patches but always got past them. There were times when we both said things to each other when we were mad. Once we cooled down and thought about things we made up.
Today, we still have our differences and respect each other. We talk about any thing and everything.
I think that once a person reaches 18, that we as parents have to learn to let go. Let them be the adults that they think they are. They are going to do whatever they want to, no matter what/how we feel about it. We can only be there for them when they let us. We need to learn to let them make mistakes and hope and pray that they learn from those mistakes. I know it was hard on me letting go. I didnt like some of the things my daughter did once she was out on her owm and often voiced my opinion to her. She told me it was her life and she could do whatever she wanted. She was right. It is her life, and she has the right as an adult to choose how she wants to live it. I may not always agree with her decisions, but have learned not to voice my opinions or objections to her. If and when she wants them and ask, then yes, I will give them to her.
This has been a long week with Drake sick and Nicki working 7 days this week. I am tired and having problems with my sugar going up and down. Not been sleeping much. But as a friend says, we are women we will survive. Yes, I will survive.
Until next time I hope all is well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
We expect a lot from our children and want the best for them. They think we owe them the world. Should give them what they want when they want it. They often think they shouldnt have to work and pay for any thing that they want.
I worked from the time I was 13. Started out baby sitting. Worked during the summer on the Summer Youth program all 4 of my high school years to pay for the things I needed for shcool. Worked my senior year in the kitchen at school to pay
for all the things I needed for graduation.
You guessed it. I did things that momma said I couldnt do. When I got caught I took the punishment. I was also resentful toward momma and my younger brother and sister. I got punished for things they did. When I was 18 I was told I had to get a job, pay my momma and step dad to live in their house and if I didnt I could get out. So I left and moved in with one of my older sisters to baby sit her kids. Dale and I got married shortly after that. I was told I wasnt allowed to visit my momma or siblings. Because my step father didnt like Dale. Well he didnt like me either. Wasnt any love lost. If I could go back and change things would I? No, for the simple fact that the past made me the person I am today. Taught me that I could make it on my own. That no one but me was responsible for me but me.
My relationship with my daughter while she was growing up was pretty good. Once she got married it changed. She got married when she was 18. We had our rough patches but always got past them. There were times when we both said things to each other when we were mad. Once we cooled down and thought about things we made up.
Today, we still have our differences and respect each other. We talk about any thing and everything.
I think that once a person reaches 18, that we as parents have to learn to let go. Let them be the adults that they think they are. They are going to do whatever they want to, no matter what/how we feel about it. We can only be there for them when they let us. We need to learn to let them make mistakes and hope and pray that they learn from those mistakes. I know it was hard on me letting go. I didnt like some of the things my daughter did once she was out on her owm and often voiced my opinion to her. She told me it was her life and she could do whatever she wanted. She was right. It is her life, and she has the right as an adult to choose how she wants to live it. I may not always agree with her decisions, but have learned not to voice my opinions or objections to her. If and when she wants them and ask, then yes, I will give them to her.
This has been a long week with Drake sick and Nicki working 7 days this week. I am tired and having problems with my sugar going up and down. Not been sleeping much. But as a friend says, we are women we will survive. Yes, I will survive.
Until next time I hope all is well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Emotions
Emotions
Today there is all kinds of emotions/feelings/thoughts or
whatever you want to call them running through my mind.
Not even sure how to describe how I am feeling.
Memories of family, some good and some painful. Some happy
good thoughts and some sad lonely thoughts.
Where to start.
Perhaps with this, its some thing I heard on tv last night.
"The pleasure you get from life is equal to the attitude that you
put in it". I think for me, this is very true. When I was younger,
I had a I dont care attitude about many things. I acted like nothing
could get me down. But that wasnt true. I got hurt just like any one
else. I just didnt let people see it or any one get close to me. When
I got older, I had friends that I hung out with. But not any one that
I was felt really close to except my youngest sister. But I never really
told her how I felt alot of times. She and I had our arguement and
parting of the ways more than once. But we always made up and
remain close all these years later.
Attitude as defined by merriam-webster
1 : the arrangement of the parts of a body or figure : posture
2 : a position assumed for a specific purpose,a threatening attitude
3 : a ballet position similar to the arabesque in which the raised leg is bent at the knee
4 : a mental position with regard to a fact or state, a helpful attitude b : a feeling or emotion toward a fact or state
5 : the position of an aircraft or spacecraft determined by the relationship between its axes and a reference datum (as the horizon or a particular star)
6 : an organismic state of readiness to respond in a characteristic way to a stimulus (as an object, concept, or situation)
7 : a negative or hostile state of mind b : a cool, cocky, defiant, or arrogant manner
The attitude of today will effect how I interact with the boys this afternoon and evening and of course
the attitude they have when they get home from their dads effect how we interact with each other.
Some days my attitude is I just dont care. Yeah, right what ever, and other days I am happy go lucky
and carefree an nothing much could bring me down. I know I am tired and rambling. Oh, well,
and here again it is attitude, its my blog and its ok to ramble if I want to right?
Grrrrrrrr I dont like feeling this way and not knowing exactly what the feeling is. But, thats life. My life
in general a lot of times.
My attitude about the past? It can only hurt me if I let it. Do I let it hurt me? Sure do. Its what has made
me the person I am today. The hurt and pain caused me to learn how to be strong and to stand up for the
things I believe in. How to openly speak my mind, some times causing others pain, but telling the truth and
being honest about how i feel about things. That to is all part of living life.
End of ramble for now. Time to go back to bed. When I get up I have things to do before going to babysit.
I cant say that the next time wont be rambling. It will be what it is that I am feeling at the time.
So until next time I hope all is well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
Today there is all kinds of emotions/feelings/thoughts or
whatever you want to call them running through my mind.
Not even sure how to describe how I am feeling.
Memories of family, some good and some painful. Some happy
good thoughts and some sad lonely thoughts.
Where to start.
Perhaps with this, its some thing I heard on tv last night.
"The pleasure you get from life is equal to the attitude that you
put in it". I think for me, this is very true. When I was younger,
I had a I dont care attitude about many things. I acted like nothing
could get me down. But that wasnt true. I got hurt just like any one
else. I just didnt let people see it or any one get close to me. When
I got older, I had friends that I hung out with. But not any one that
I was felt really close to except my youngest sister. But I never really
told her how I felt alot of times. She and I had our arguement and
parting of the ways more than once. But we always made up and
remain close all these years later.
Attitude as defined by merriam-webster
1 : the arrangement of the parts of a body or figure : posture
2 : a position assumed for a specific purpose,a threatening attitude
3 : a ballet position similar to the arabesque in which the raised leg is bent at the knee
4 : a mental position with regard to a fact or state, a helpful attitude b : a feeling or emotion toward a fact or state
5 : the position of an aircraft or spacecraft determined by the relationship between its axes and a reference datum (as the horizon or a particular star)
6 : an organismic state of readiness to respond in a characteristic way to a stimulus (as an object, concept, or situation)
7 : a negative or hostile state of mind b : a cool, cocky, defiant, or arrogant manner
The attitude of today will effect how I interact with the boys this afternoon and evening and of course
the attitude they have when they get home from their dads effect how we interact with each other.
Some days my attitude is I just dont care. Yeah, right what ever, and other days I am happy go lucky
and carefree an nothing much could bring me down. I know I am tired and rambling. Oh, well,
and here again it is attitude, its my blog and its ok to ramble if I want to right?
Grrrrrrrr I dont like feeling this way and not knowing exactly what the feeling is. But, thats life. My life
in general a lot of times.
My attitude about the past? It can only hurt me if I let it. Do I let it hurt me? Sure do. Its what has made
me the person I am today. The hurt and pain caused me to learn how to be strong and to stand up for the
things I believe in. How to openly speak my mind, some times causing others pain, but telling the truth and
being honest about how i feel about things. That to is all part of living life.
End of ramble for now. Time to go back to bed. When I get up I have things to do before going to babysit.
I cant say that the next time wont be rambling. It will be what it is that I am feeling at the time.
So until next time I hope all is well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Please Help
My friend Crystal ask me to post this to any one and every one I know.
This is a raffle for Cancer Research. What is being raffled off you ask. A basket of goodies from Avon. You can see the basket and get all the raffle info here.
This is a raffle for Cancer Research. What is being raffled off you ask. A basket of goodies from Avon. You can see the basket and get all the raffle info here.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
My Weekend
All this past week, Drake kept asking me when we were going to "Aunt Granda's". Shes his great aunt. He got all excited and was jumping up and down yelling yipeeee when I told him Saturday evening that that was Aunt Granda on the phone and that she would be here soon to pick us up.
Josh, Drake and I went to spend Saturday night with her. We got up this morning and went to church with her to surprise our baby brother Rick. He was teaching his first Sunday School class. She also had a surprise for her hubby Tom, their daughter Cassie also came to church. Ricks wife Sharon knew we were coming.
Last night on the way to Granda's house we stopped and got pizza and ice cream. Went to her house and made pizza and had ice cream. The boys loved playing with her dog Rags, a pom yorkie mix. Got up this morning, made breakfast, got the boys and myself ready for church. The look on Ricks face, when he walked in and saw all of us there. Wish I had a pic. We came home after church and dropped the boys off at their house so they could go to their dads. Then Granda and I went to Peking for a late lunch. We all had a great time and looking forward to spending more time with Granda and Tom.
All was right in my own little piece of the world this weekend. So until next time I hope all is well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
Josh, Drake and I went to spend Saturday night with her. We got up this morning and went to church with her to surprise our baby brother Rick. He was teaching his first Sunday School class. She also had a surprise for her hubby Tom, their daughter Cassie also came to church. Ricks wife Sharon knew we were coming.
Last night on the way to Granda's house we stopped and got pizza and ice cream. Went to her house and made pizza and had ice cream. The boys loved playing with her dog Rags, a pom yorkie mix. Got up this morning, made breakfast, got the boys and myself ready for church. The look on Ricks face, when he walked in and saw all of us there. Wish I had a pic. We came home after church and dropped the boys off at their house so they could go to their dads. Then Granda and I went to Peking for a late lunch. We all had a great time and looking forward to spending more time with Granda and Tom.
All was right in my own little piece of the world this weekend. So until next time I hope all is well for you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
It Is What It Is
It is what it is means that this is my blog where I come to be me. The person that I am and the way that I see the world around me. Where I dont have to watch what I say for fear of offending some one. My blog is public and any one can read it and comment. That is your choice to read or not read it.
I am tired of people taking things the wrong way and turning things I say or post around to make it about them, when its not. Well from now on I will be saying what I think and feel about things and if you think its about you then it is because youre the one making it about you.
I have never hidden the fact that I am very opinionated. I say what I think. Just because I express my opinion doesnt make it right or wrong. Its just that, my opinion on the topic or situation as I see it.
I do not talk about people behind their back. I say it to their face. I hope that when my friends have a problem with something I said or did that they will come and talk to me about it. If not and they talk to some one else about it (gossip or whatever you want to call it) the way I see it.......good they are letting some one else rest who cant take it.
Do I care what people think of me? Of course I do but I dont let their negative feelings bring me down. I see it as something to work on so that the relationship I have with that person will benefit from it. But..........and yes there is always a "but" if it doesnt make the relationship/friendship better for either of us then just maybe it wasnt ment to be. In this case I just try my best to get a long with that person. I WILL NOT CHANGE THE PERSON WHO I AM FOR ANY ONE BUT MYSELF. You are either my friend because you like me the way I am or not. Either way I harbor no hard feelings against any one who feels that we cant be friends based on things that happened while trying out new friendshipf. Its ok not to like every one in the world around you.
I dont mince my words with the people in my daily life and I am not going to start doing it now in the things I post here. That isnt me. This is the real me that post things here.
If a post here refers to some one specific then I will say so. I dont always mention the persons name but will mention something specific so if they read this they will know it is about them. Only something they would know.
There were some very good positives going on in my world this week. Things worked out for the best and will benefit the people involved in these positives for a long time to come.
A positive I am looking forward to this weekend is spending time with my youngest sister, Granda. I will be taking Josh and Drake with me. We will be leaving some time Saturday and going to Grandas house to spend the night. Going to her church Sunday morning so I can be there when my baby brother Rick teaches his first Sunday school class. After church, we will be coming home so the boys can get ready to go to their dads for the coming week. Granda and I have always been close. Always will be close to her. We have had our differences and always made up. I think family is important. Not all my siblings are a part of my life and that is ok. It makes me sad but I can handle it. Some family members live to far away, but do keep in touch. Not often but occassionally is fine with me.
I learned something this week about one of my older brothers through Face Book. He read something I posted to notes and was concerned about me. Showes me that he does care although we dont talk often. Made me feel good knowing he cares.
I have friends from all walks of life and from around the world in many different countries. Some have my home phone number and if I am not online, they get concerned for my well being and call me. It makes me feel good to know that they care. I also feel the same way about them and call them if they are not online for a while.
So until next time I hope all is well with you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
I am tired of people taking things the wrong way and turning things I say or post around to make it about them, when its not. Well from now on I will be saying what I think and feel about things and if you think its about you then it is because youre the one making it about you.
I have never hidden the fact that I am very opinionated. I say what I think. Just because I express my opinion doesnt make it right or wrong. Its just that, my opinion on the topic or situation as I see it.
I do not talk about people behind their back. I say it to their face. I hope that when my friends have a problem with something I said or did that they will come and talk to me about it. If not and they talk to some one else about it (gossip or whatever you want to call it) the way I see it.......good they are letting some one else rest who cant take it.
Do I care what people think of me? Of course I do but I dont let their negative feelings bring me down. I see it as something to work on so that the relationship I have with that person will benefit from it. But..........and yes there is always a "but" if it doesnt make the relationship/friendship better for either of us then just maybe it wasnt ment to be. In this case I just try my best to get a long with that person. I WILL NOT CHANGE THE PERSON WHO I AM FOR ANY ONE BUT MYSELF. You are either my friend because you like me the way I am or not. Either way I harbor no hard feelings against any one who feels that we cant be friends based on things that happened while trying out new friendshipf. Its ok not to like every one in the world around you.
I dont mince my words with the people in my daily life and I am not going to start doing it now in the things I post here. That isnt me. This is the real me that post things here.
If a post here refers to some one specific then I will say so. I dont always mention the persons name but will mention something specific so if they read this they will know it is about them. Only something they would know.
There were some very good positives going on in my world this week. Things worked out for the best and will benefit the people involved in these positives for a long time to come.
A positive I am looking forward to this weekend is spending time with my youngest sister, Granda. I will be taking Josh and Drake with me. We will be leaving some time Saturday and going to Grandas house to spend the night. Going to her church Sunday morning so I can be there when my baby brother Rick teaches his first Sunday school class. After church, we will be coming home so the boys can get ready to go to their dads for the coming week. Granda and I have always been close. Always will be close to her. We have had our differences and always made up. I think family is important. Not all my siblings are a part of my life and that is ok. It makes me sad but I can handle it. Some family members live to far away, but do keep in touch. Not often but occassionally is fine with me.
I learned something this week about one of my older brothers through Face Book. He read something I posted to notes and was concerned about me. Showes me that he does care although we dont talk often. Made me feel good knowing he cares.
I have friends from all walks of life and from around the world in many different countries. Some have my home phone number and if I am not online, they get concerned for my well being and call me. It makes me feel good to know that they care. I also feel the same way about them and call them if they are not online for a while.
So until next time I hope all is well with you and yours in your own little piece of the world.
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